December 2011
4 posts
Toughy
“I don’t need a band aid Mummy, I’m tough enough.”
The best in the world
“Mummy, you came second. Because you were in a race. Daddy, you came second too! You’re the best bike rider in the WORLD. Just like me! I’m the best in the WORLD!” Ash - 3 1/2. Talking about a race Kent and I went in as a pair. We came second, out of two. But Ash doesn’t need to know that (:
“Ash, would you like toast with your bacon?”
“No thank you daddy, but you can if you like”
November 2011
3 posts
Bed time stories
Ash and I have started a bit of a habit - I lie in bed with him at night and tell him stories before he goes to sleep. I’m sure he’s just playing me so I stay longer.
“Tell me the book about Jackson and his brover Phoebe when they go to the zoo, that’s the one I want you to read.”
I start telling the story, and Sometimes I ask ash how it goes.
“When they...
October 2011
5 posts
The road everyone travels
From where I sit, I see the blur of everything I want, passing me by. The only thing I’m truly, deeply proud of in my life is my family. Everything else disappoints me. Will I ever have the guts to step off the main road onto a side track? Not the way I’m looking at it right now. It’ll never happen if I don’t believe it will.
I can feel you breathe
Walking around with Cameron on my back in the Ergo Baby Carrier, he finally fell asleep. I can feel your body moving as you breathe. I feel your warmth, and you are completely relaxed. Surrendering to sleep.
A little heartbeat
Today I leant my head on Cameron’s chest, just to feel close to him. His little heart beat pumping away was a surprise. It was beating so fast, and I felt so close to him. Not all that long ago, his little heart was beating inside me.
I have never done that before, not even with Ash. I think I’ll do it more often. There’s life inside that little body.
WatchLessons on getting back up after a fall, from a three year old. His first go on the singletrack.
September 2011
6 posts
Ash completely loses himself to the excitement in recalling our trip to re snow. “We went to the snow theyesterday, and we went on a TRAIN!! And it was snowing and winding at us and I was crying about it, and we went DOWN the hill in the tunnel AGAIN!”
You close your little eyes so gently and soak in the good stuff when I’m feeding you. You look like you are in a state of complete bliss.
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The more time you spend fighting with people who...
Love this
Listening to Ash and Daddy reading Paddington at the Zoo, and both of them making the animal noises. Perfect.
June 2011
2 posts
Remembering you
When I first met you I cried, smelled you, and felt your warm body against my chest. Every day I love you more, just as I do your brother. You give me love and smiles when I need it most.
When I first saw you, I could not have known how much love you’d bring to me, even though I had the same with your brother before you. Somehow now it’s more important to me, because I need your calm...
May 2011
1 post
April 2011
5 posts
February 2011
4 posts
January 2011
2 posts
December 2010
9 posts
dallasclayton:
GRIND
When you’re in the midst of a breakdown
remember that others with far more to lose
and much further to go
have been where you are
and emerged unscathed
by doing little more
than continuing forward
with their heads down
and their boots tightly laced.
November 2010
10 posts
The moments between pain feel sweeter the worse the pain gets.
Fear of pain can rob you of those moments and cause indefinite suffering.
Why choose one when you can choose the other?
No one will ever care as much about yourself as you do. It’s a fact. But if that’s not true for you, either you have incredibly incredible people in your lives, or you don’t care enough about yourself.
Ash, tonight together we laughed, cried, ate messily, threw food on the floor, cleaned food up off the floor, made crazy arm signals at each other, cleaned our teeth, cuddled, giggled, kissed, and said goodnight. I thought I loved more than I ever could. Turns out I keep loving you more and more.
If no one sees it, does it still mean so much to you? If no one values it like you do, is it still worth doing?
The value of sharing can not be overlooked, it is intrinsically built into us, and is arguably an essential part of being human.
Music
You can’t see it, or touch it, but you can feel it.
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Turning around to see you excitedly smile and cry out “It’s Daddy!” Damn you’re cute Ash.
JuJu's Patch
My recurring little patch of perfect is when I think about my girls, and what a deeply satisfying feeling it is to watch them living their lives the way they do, balancing work and family life, hobbies and interests,. They, their husbands and their children bring us constant joy. We are physically far away yet always near because they are all here with us in our hearts